out of body

This is gonna take a bit of explaining. I began having sleep paralysis I believe in 2004. it seemed to only occur when I was sleeping on the sofa at night. There were but 3 or 4 brief episodes at that residence. Initially this was quite scary. with each iteration I became more aware of what was occuring. I learned that if I closed my eyes I could reawaken a short time later and the paralysis would be gone. I had a conversation with a woman who informed me that sleep paralysis was a state of conscious that can precede an out of body experience. But that it takes work. Upon learning this the episodes stopped for about two years, then resumed. These occured while sleeping in bed, as the couch had been discarded.



One night in January while sleeping I had a series of experiences that im not sure were dreams. I was lying on my side afterward when I awoke. This is notable because the experience began with me awaking suddenly while sitting straight up, (as though I was lying on my back.) then immediately it repeated, without lying back. (I sat up suddenly twice without lying back down in between?) I then saw the room revolving and the point of view of this rotation seemed to be getting closer and closer to the ceiling. The room itself was not spinning, It was as though I was rotating end over end while gaining altitude. This was quite unnerving. I can remember thinking to myself that I would hit the ceiling. This was very frightening. the experience then ended. I remember waking up to a state of sleep paralysis. My vision returned very slowing as did my hearing. At this point I was lying on my side. Its hard to explain but during sleep paralysis phenominilization is scewed. Your visual accuity returns slowly after awakening into this state of conciousness. the lights in the room, which were just the various led's of the computer's, tv, modem, clocks, etc cast dim light to different areas of the house. My bed being in the living room has lots of shadow's in the dark from these sources. Upon awaking in a state of sleep paralysis the darkness seems to be total, there is no light. Then slowing the darkness recedes, twisting a bit as the lines of the shadows and light find their place and you can see again.



Now , I honestly believe this might have been an out of body experience. The rotation part. I can have sleep paralysis without fear, Im past that fear. But This was new, for some reason the thought of impacting the cieling frightened me and I screwed it up, and it ended. Im hoping this will occur again and that I will have the clarity to control my fear and see what happens when I contact a solid object. If this was an out of body experience then I would have passed through the ceiling, the attic, the roof and then been in the open night sky.



I always wanted to fly.

Pre planning

I've thought about what sort of tombstone I'd like to have and Im leaning towards one shaped like a park bench. Well, a park bench sitting on a large flat slab that is even with the grade. The bench could face the front of the slab, and the headstone would be sorta centered towards the top and facing the bench. Im thinking "keep it simple" name, important dates, and a quote, "take a rest, and tell me about your day."